today i am bloggin for a different reason all togeather, its not about sharing my views about life and politics or of my land.. today let the reason be me, for there is a lot inside me, a whole lot, my friends have always been there for me, whenever i had to say something, i knew there was an patient ear listening, but today i have, i dont want to say it, but i have to, i have lost my friend, i have nobody to tell, but wh0soever reads this blog, my hands are colored with blood as i have mercilessly killed a friendship, i have destoryed what we created, i lost my best friends and perhaps the reason is none but me, i perhaps did it for no reason or for the ultimate reason, i want to say, whihic i havent said for months now, i want to scream and say, but can i. will my friend ever understand, will my friend be able to look at, which i cannot show and will not, would i ever be lost in my friends emrabce, i cant even wish that i could one day. i m lost in a mire a quagmire and i m left with no desires.
there is a lil pain in my heart, coz i killed, what i loved, i killed not only my part of friendship but also my friends part, i am guilty, and my friend is not here to punish me..
i am guilty of seperating my soul from me..
nobody but me..
